Safe (inspired by Sunday Scribblings)

Safe

In familiarity and routine

Procedures and regulations

We forget that no one has ever

Achieved anything great

By playing it

Safe

Dear Rinpoche

Your wisdom speech announces the truth

Your limitless compassion is shining proof

That enlightened energy manifests in you

From my heart I rejoice in all that you do

In times when I struggle to follow your advice

I just need to remember the love in your eyes

And feeling your trust and unwavering faith

I continue to follow the teachings you gave

I’m vowing to never abandon the path

That I’ll invest myself fully - not just half

Like you I won’t rest until all beings are free

And see the truth for themselves

With clarity

Bucket List (inspired by We Write Poems)

My list is endless I have to admit

Too many things that won’t possibly fit

In the time you can find in just one life

Deciding and choosing a constant strife

One thing has been on that list for a while

And merely the thought of it makes me smile

I feel happy and blissful imagining it

But it also scares me – just a little bit

With that joyful passion and a pinch of fear

It’s something I’ve been holding very dear

And close to my heart since being a child:

Oh how I wish to spend time in the wild!

Surrounded by jungles lush and green

Exploring places where no one has been

Hearing the sound of strange creatures at night

The beauty of nature the only sight

I’d like to live with an indigenous tribe

And learn to tune into their natural vibe

By living a life very simple and real

All my civilised dis-ease

Might be able to heal

To be a woman

I’ve always struggled with this

Felt there’s something wrong

With being reduced to your gender

Being told where you belong

Neither emancipated feminist

Nor obedient little thing

I detest both extremes

And I don’t want to cling

To the body I’m born with

In order to decide

Who I am and who I can be

I don’t want to hide

Behind conventions and rules

Restrictions and pressure

I want to live my life

At my own leisure

In the journey of life

Our body’s just the car

Our mind is the driver

And determines who we are

Conversation with my inner wisdom being (inspired by We Write Poems)

“We write poems” have asked us this week to write a conversational poem. When I started contemplating this prompt, it made me think of an exercise I used a lot when working as a Learning Mentor with primary school children. I asked them to close their eyes and visualise themselves going on a journey to find a wisdom being that lives in a cave. The wisdom being would then give them a present. I’d let them describe their journey, the cave, what the wisdom being looked like and what present they got and then draw a picture of it to keep. I told them that anytime they needed advice, they could go back to that place in their mind and ask the wisdom being for help and guidance. That way I hoped to enable them to access their own inner wisdom.

Today, I felt a bit down and found myself wondering what I could do to get rid of these negative feelings inside of me. I realised that everyone is doing this all the time: craving the good feelings and pushing away the bad ones. I then engaged into a conversation with my inner wisdom being about this and this is my attempt to present the resulting conversation in poetic form:

I don’t want bad feelings.

How can I only experience the good?

That’s a very good question

But how is it that you would

Even know what good feels like?

Don’t you need to know what’s bad?

I know good and bad, so I can compare

And I prefer feeling happy over feeling sad.

But how, without each other, could they even exist?

So is it foolish to wish for good ones?

You’ve left me in the mist.

With dualistic thinking

Your suffering won’t cease

Go beyond to the source

And you will find peace

From there watch it all

Arise and pass away

Don’t judge or hold on

That’s the only way.

Invisible (inspired by Sunday Scribblings)

It's easy to judge as lies

Anything invisible to our eyes

As if visibility is a credential

In order to be true or essential

True courage (inspired by Writer's Island)

When it comes to fear

I choose fight over flight

But to replace fear with anger

Somehow doesn’t feel right

This technique really sucks

And has little to do

With the spirit and heart

Of courage that is true

True courage is able

To stay with the fear

Looks at it closely

Even holds it dear

Watches it patiently

With awareness that is pure

That it will eventually dissolve

True courage knows for sure

Reflections (for Jingle Poetry Potluck "Languages, Signs and Symbols")

We assume we understand each other’s signs

We’re looking out, listening in

And try to read between the lines

But maybe we’re just projecting our thoughts

On a virgin white screen

And reflections of ourselves

Are all that can be seen

Spring Cleaning

Hidden in the back of the cupboard and

Covered in spider webs of die-hard habits

Sit musty old boxes, filled to the brim

With old fears and emotional memorabilia

They smell of where we don’t want to go

Of where we pretend we’ve never been

And still we are so reluctant to finally

Throw it all out and give ourselves

A thorough spring clean

Not a morning person

The sound of the alarm clock ripped through the reality of her dreams with the intensity of someone smacking her hard in the face. Irritated and annoyed she reached for the off button without opening her eyes. She just couldn’t find inside herself whatever was necessary to get up instead of turning the alarm off but she never really went back to sleep either. It was like someone had attached some sort of buoyancy equipment to her consciousness that pulled her up and out of the deeper layers of sleep as soon as she went under. By the time she finally dragged herself out of bed, she was even more tired, angry at herself for not just getting up and obviously late and under pressure to get ready for work.

Every morning started like this. She woke up grumpy, irritated and already on the back foot before the day had begun. She could never understand how some people joyfully jumped out of bed in the morning and in addition sang or whistled a jolly tune that accompanied them on their way to the bathroom. She envied them.

This morning, just to add insult to injury, the milk had gone off over night so she couldn’t even fit a coffee in. She left the house and walked to the station completely weighed down by the dark clouds on her mind and almost didn’t notice the new advertisement they put up opposite the station’s entrance. “Not a morning person?” it shouted at her in big letters and portrayed a woman not unlike herself first thing in the morning with wild hair, scrunched up eyes and a grim, almost desperate look on her face. It was like looking in the mirror with the difference that she had now changed from pyjama to work clothes, done her hair and put some make-up on. Weird, she thought and went closer to try and make out what it was actually about. It was an advert to encourage self-employment. “Choose your own working hours, be your own boss...” “Pfff...” she huffed to herself and the miserable mood, only momentarily interrupted by a moment of surprise, clouded back over her.

3 hours, 2 coffees and a seemingly never ending stream of mind numbing work tasks later she found her mind going back to that advert. Not a morning person. No, she thought, she wasn’t but neither had she planned on becoming self-employed. She looked around over the open plan office space in which she had her desk. The quiet atmosphere in this room full of people suddenly seemed eerie and unreal. As if along with the oxygen all life had been sucked out of it and replaced by the gassy discharges of human bodies, reeking of dissatisfaction. She grabbed her coat and decided to take her lunch early.

Outside it was raining and because she wasn’t really hungry yet she decided to stroll through the shopping centre and grab a sandwich on the way back. She walked towards the bookshop to browse some of the new books on offer when her eyes fixated on a book in the window. “Positively negative – how knowing who you are NOT can help you find out who you are!” it said in bold letters on the cover. She walked inside and asked to have a look at the book. It was one of those psycho crap books she naturally loathed, a workbook type with several exercises to follow in order to find one’s “true calling”. She didn’t know what had come over her that made her walk to the till and buy it but on the train home she started reading it and actually enjoyed where it was taking her.

When she passed the advertisement outside her station she winked at her mirror image with a smile.

Embark (inspired by Writer's Island)

It’s in the quiet hours of the night

When I already turned off the light

That my muse turns towards me in the dark

Whispers in my ear and asks me to embark

On this journey to a mysterious land

Where thoughts and feelings take my hand

Start dancing with me until I glow

And from my fingers words start to flow

Like travellers from a far-away land

Washed ashore

Writing in the sand